First time this year that I've felt so much pain over someone enough to realize that I did have feelings for him. Today was just a fucked up day because of him. He ruined my life currently right now. "Do you know her?" "I come to starbucks a lot....they all know who I am." Beyond fucked up. We made out in your car on a few occasions, no big deal. You talked to me all summer because I needed you. And then you tell someone that I make your fucking drinks for you? I have never been so hurt. I don't know what to do anymore. All I know is that I'm hurt. I'm so sorry I didn't meet up to your standards, whatever. You don't have to be a fucked up little twat about it. Thank you for making me feel so good about myself. Thank you so much.

I love you. I truly do. For two years I've loved you. And you'll never know, because you love someone else. I have to let you go. With all my heart, I have to try. I love you. I will always love you.