Seeing as I only write on this blog to complain about the problems I have, I might as well continue doing that. My tumblr seems to be the complete and total opposite of that, but oh well. Now I have other concerns and emotions and it is bothering me more then anything I have dealt with in a long time. I'm not the type of person to say I have true feelings for someone, however, this is the first time in a very long time that I can say that I truly do...and it scares the shit out of me. I don't like that feeling of being vulnerable, or constantly wanting to be around that person, and I do. The problem is, is that I know he's attracted to me, it's just that I'm not too sure how far he wants to go in the relationship way. He wants to do things with me, that's for sure because we've talked about it. But, he doesn't realize how much I like spending time with him. Seeing him for twenty mintues yesterday and then going to hang out with another "guy" friend for a few hours who has genuine feelings for me, made me more confused then I ever have been. That few hours with that other guy cannot compare to the twenty minutes spent with him. Seeing him come into work today made my heart skip five million beats. Then the other guy came in, and I hid behind the counter, haha. But I don't get it. I haven't had these feelins for the longest time. I like the idea of us. I like hanging around him. I like when he puts his arms around me, but I don't know if he'll ever want what I want. Only time will tell, but I'm going crazy and impatient. All I want to do is spend every second of my day with him. That's all I want.